all dark clouds will soon fade away

To all reader sorry coz latelly nie cik hana lady agak touching and use broken english..hihihi..that is me..meluahkan sesuatu dalam bahasa english tu adalah 1 kepuasan di samping dapat memperbayakkan vocab cik hana lady nie yang dah semakin menjauh..hihihi ...sometime cik hana lady rase idup nie xadil sadness and hapiness come and go ..when im alone and think all about my life,my self,my career, all about me lah kan..cik hana lady get something yang boleh cik hana lady kongsi bersame...never thought it would be so harsh living in this world..surrounded by people who matter to you but sometimes hurt you,

many times i just want to give up when something happen...atlast, there is always a small voice within me..willing me to go on and cheering me up..guys sometimes in life i go through challenging and daunting times but in due course testing times will bring me happiness..
happiness that will uplift me..happiness that will fill my heart, my mind, and my soul...happiness that will give me the strength i need

now cik hana lady faham erti kehidupan...things are likely to happen for a reason,which is difficult to see unless cik hana lady seek it out..sometimes it takes ages just to see it..but more often than not, all it takes is just a little cik hana lady always ask myself to remain patient for deep in my heart, i know this disheartening times will soon pass....huhuhuh...

i take one day at a not worry about tomorrow,it may be joy and it may be sorrow i belive that every raindrop has a rainbow in the offing and every cloud has a silver lining
waiting just for me in the horizon..all dark clouds will soon fade away and everything will be jolly and sunny soon..i hope soo..huhuhu..(! _ !)...please pray for me guys...

If Tomorrow God Wants Me To Go....

If tomorrow God wants me to go, and I’m not there to see,
If the sun should rise and find your eyes all filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn’t cry the way you did today,
while thinking of the many things we didn’t get to say.
I know how much you care for me, and how much I care for you,
and each time that you think of me I know you’ll miss me too;

But when tomorrow God wants me to go, please try to understand,
that my time is up and it's time for me to go,
and that I’d have to leave behind all those I dearly love.

But as I turned to walk away, a tear fell from my eye,
for all life, I’m not prepared to die so soon.
I had so much to live for and so much yet to do.
it seemed almost impossible that I was leaving you.

I thought of all the love we shared and all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday, I thought, just for a while,
I’d say goodbye and hug you and maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realised that this could never be,
for emptiness and memories would take the place of me.

And when I thought of worldly things that I’d miss come tomorrow.
I thought of you, and when I did, my heart was filled with sorrow.

Today my life on earth is past but yours starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow, but today will always last.
and since each day’s the same, there’s no longing for the past.

But you have been so loving, so trusting, so funny.
Though there were times you did some things you knew you shouldn’t do.
And you have been forgiven and now at last you’re free.

So won’t you come and take my hand and share my life with me?
So if tomorrow starts without me, don’t think we’re far apart,
for every time you think of me, please know I’m in your heart.
and if tomorrow god wants me to go..please forgive me...

i hope that i always be with you...forever...

ya allah.. I'm really Sorry...

Ya Allah.....!
it hurts when I have to let go the things I really love..
it hurts when I have to lose something that I really want..
it hurts, Allah…
it hurts..

but believe me, Ya Allah..
I will feel hurt most when I know that I have hurt You..
it hurt most, Allah..
believe me..
believe me….

I realize that I can never live without Your mercy..
I realize that I can never smile without the concious that You are pleased with me..
I realize that I can never lead my life if You are unhappy with me..

I am sorry..
I am really really sorry..
For I have neglected You for long time..
For I have loved others more than I should love You..
For I have prioritized others more than I should..

Even then…
You still gives me food to eat.. when I am not supposed to eat what I shouldn't eat
You still gives me eyes to see.. when I am not supposed to see what I shouldn't see
You still gives me ears to hear.. when I am not supposed to hear what I shouldn't hear
You still gives me skin to touch.. when I am not supposed to touch what I shouldn't touch
You still give the air I'm breathing now.. when I have done tonnes of mistakes..

How can someone not fall for You??
You are very nice Ya Allah..
You are very kind Ya Allah..
You are great Ya Allah..

but I forget..
I'm so occupied with this world..
I'm so busy with my life..
I'm so so so busy about myself..

I can never forgive myself if this were to happen again..
how can I do that to You Allah…I'm such an arrogant slave..
I'm not thankful to You…
I feel embarrased Ya Allah..I'm embarrased…Ya Allah!

but please Ya Allah…
soon ONE DAY I will be meeting You YA ALLAH!
FORGIVE me on that day YA ALLAH
THAT is my only WISH...YA ALLAH!

( ! _ !)